rob_sleepyowl

AAAAAAAAHHHHH How could I forget I have a live journal

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 10:13:13 GMT

Ok I have forgotten where I have got to as I have been looking for work, suffered a bought of food poisoning and started to write a book. I think that is pretty much it. I have a few more claw gashes to my skin courtesy of Gabriel.

Well my book is going well, I have got passed the first page and infact I am on my 14th page which is an absolute miracle and for me is a personal record, I think the most I have typed is 3 pages and then thought this is a pile of shit, but I'm writing a novel, an informative novel at that, people will learn a little from it if it gets published which I feel would be highly unlikely.

Money is tight at the mo, but I have had a few therapy bookings off people I need a few more though or for tarot. My sister is also paying me back for my laptop that she broke so that is helping and I have a fall back option for Christmas temp work, so that will keep the wolf from the door a little as long as I can resist Der Frankfurt Markt which I find difficult.

Florence Sleepyowl

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 16:08:32 GMT

Well still looking for work. Though when I got back from the search I got lost on the computer, I have started to create a family tree, but can't go much further without paying for it & what will I get for my £10 not much just the maiden name of my Aunty Pam and that is all, well I am going to do some the hard way & load it up on the internet just to wipe the smile from her smug face, as she is a stuck up cow.

Well I suppose I'd better explain the title instead of doing strange tandents, Rich has been ill again, this time MAN FLU!!!!. He has been a bit of a snotbag but I have eucalyptused his pillow, made him hot squash, fed him on a load of veg, fruit juices & a curry, I also have been decongesting him too. S I have been good with his nursing. In all fairness it did affect his balance, so he couldn't drive and couldn't hear much either. He wasn't much of a demanding patient, but then again I like playing nurse anyway. He went back to work today & he survived so that's a good thing.

I want a job that lasts more than a few days, kitty wants bitty

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 17:03:55 GMT

Well my job at the packing firm went well, no complaints & I was even out in the work place, but it didn't last as 8 days into the job, the company fails to get the really big orders they usually get & have to lay off nearly all of it's temp staff, but the agency have been good & are trying to get me some work, though they are yet to hear back off the job they sent me for an interview with. So I'm looking for work, there is of course Christmas temp work, but some have already taken on their staff some haven't even started to even think about it AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH it's a minefield of timing.

Ok now onto the kittens & my gripe is mainly focused on oneof them in particular, Gabriel or as to what I usually call him GABRIEL!!!!, he certainly doen't live up to his angelic name the little shit. He has so far used me as a scratching post, pissed on my leg, is constantly on the table, keeps trying to climb the book shelves & most worrying of all he is trying to suckle off his sister. They are not old enough for the snip, so I wouldn't have thought Jezebel would produce anything & most of the time she atleast looks harrased. Also I have never seen 3 cats produce as much shit as them pair & have to empty their litter tray out every other week.

New new job

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 17:11:32 GMT

Well door to door was not my thing, I lasted my 2 days & quit on the Monday after they found that I was really unsuitable for the job, which kinda got me thinking how many other people the company has had who they didn't ask enough probing questions in the interview. Later on after my contract was terminated my team leader there asking where I was so obviously communication is not great. The reason why it was unsuitable for me is they said I would finish my shifts at 21:00 which would meant I could have at least some semblance of life at the end of it, instead finishing so late & going hypo was not a great position to be in.

Anyway later on on Monday I got a phone call from a temp agency, I almost died of shock, not only did they have scarily apropiate timing but it is the first time in 7 years that I have signed on with an agencency that they have come good. i have never had an agency job before & so far it going ok. I am a packer of mainly luxury food items & gifts, but so far not fudge, so you can't come out with the obvious joke. It maybe minimum wage which for now is ok, I do need to get something higher paid as I owe my gorgeous boyfriend loads.

New job probs

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 12:35:25 GMT

Ok I feel that I am in the wrong job, the people arenice, they are a fun lot, but their lives seem to evolve around the job, I think this is mainly to do with the hours. Ok I could just about cope with a 21:00 finish, but a 22:00 finish like last night I'm serious losing enthusiasm, I have no time for myself within the 2 days I have been there & I should have been there today but I got the time wrong even after confirming with my boss what time I had to be in because I misheard her to begin with & when I doubled checked she misheard me. But working a 6 day week that is not even legal is it, because I haven't signed a waver. As i say going back to the people who work there, they are all characters of varying descriptions, all pleasant, all outgoing & full of the enthusiasm of making fast cash, the only thing is with the job you need to be cheeky which is one thing I am not, I am either to nice or a complete bitch & have no real grey area where the cheekiness comes in. Door to door salesmanship isn't as bad to do as it sounds if you have a decent product & it would save people & in this case with the power company we represent helping out with the environment too, it really is actually something that is worth while.

If only I was so money oriented & didn't really care about what I did outside of work it would suit me but unfortunately I'm not that person, I am not on a fundraising comittee for a charity which I have volunteered with for over a year, I co-run a support group, I organise quizzes & do talks, I have a vegetable garden & 2 kittens. Plus I would prefer to see my boyfriend awake a little. So all in all I doubt I will be there for much longer.

Feeling stupid now

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 07:29:43 GMT

I confronted Rich about things that were playing on my mind & found that I ended up getting things wrong, I thought he was avoiding me but instead it is more that work is dragging him down at the mo & doesn't think that he would not be much fun to be around, so he loses himself in his music, so I really felt stupid, but in a way relieved but it did leave me feeling hollow.

Well with these feelings I decided to eat heartily & meditate, which then lead me into finding out which kitten is my familiar, it is Jezebel, she sat next to me & purred not moving a muscle, Gabriel showed no interest for quite a while & then decided oooh shiny bright thing as he singed the hairs on his ears when got to close to the flame on the candle I 'm not sure he will be doing that again in a hurry. It didn't smell pleasant but hey it was scented so the smell didn't linger for too long.

Coping or not as the case maybe

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 08:56:22 GMT

Well I'm not sure where to start with my feelings, other than I feel like crap. Well the kittens havegiven us our first scare when we couldn't find her after our friend left, fearing she went outside when we weren't looking, she somehoe managed to escape but to upstairs but where we do not know as we could not find her when we went looking up there. To be honest they are pissing me off a little already, I didn't particularly want kittens as Rich well knows, but one of us had to give as far as pets went as we couldn't even reach a compramise & it was me. Don't get me wrong they are cute & do snuggle but they scrath they climb up the curtains, they put their head in your drinks & try eat our dinners when they have been fed enough already.

Money is getting way too tight for comfort, I need a job, I need money as any back up benefit I recieve will stop in October. It isn't for a lack of trying, agencies bugger me about & everywhere else I just seem not to get the job. Why am I now so unemployable, for most of my life the longest I have been unemployed is a month, & now I'm at my wit's end I have lost most of my motivation. My volunteer work is causing problems between me & Rich thinking I am spending too much time there and at the moment it is one of the few things that is keeping me sane. I'm beginning not to cope & have started having fantasies of running away, though I doubt I would, it would cause more problems than it would solve, but I'm getting desperate.

Yesterdays cosy Evening with Rich didn't happen as his friend Paul came around, usually I don't mind him coming around but it stopped the cosy atmosphere. I ended up to listen to techno whilst cooking, which far from soothed me. I ended up cooking something I didn't want as Rich didn't want what I wanted. The cooking went wrong anyway with the chops not grilling properly & having to finish off cooking them in the microwave, which resulted in the chops losing their topping. Paul smoked all through eating dinner with the ashtray on the coffee table we had our plates on. He did other stuff that didn't seem to appropiate for being at a friend's house but would be more suited to when he was at a techno night, at this point I wanted to kick him out & to be honest I don't know how I didn't. I try to get cosy with Rich to watch Harry potter but felt awkward as he was there. By the time he left I was so uncomfortable I couldn't settle & Rich & i were almost arguing over which documantary to watch. I went to bed. But this morning I feel no better & a load of other issues are raising their ugly heads.

Bad idea

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 16:19:52 GMT

Why did we think keeping the cats in the conservatory was a good idea it has been ho for the poor things, but they are being let out to roam downstairs today. The heat is also creating another problem with them though, it is making the litter tray stink the whole room out, so the windows have been opened & the ceiling fan turned on, to kieep them cool & to try & keep the stench from being to bad.

Sorry about the lack of updating

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 08:09:31 GMT

Well last weekend with it being a bank holiday Rich had an extra day off on Tuesday as well so it meant I couldn't get near the computer if I tried as he is still creating tunes. I have had 2 interviews one at a nursing home & one at a restaurant, I will await the outcome. We have kittens, I'm a daddy, they are very cute & are called Gabriel & Jezebel, they are brother & sister of mixed parentage as they seem to be charcoal & black tabby on top & white underneath & I have learnt how to identify which one is which without needing to pick them up to look at their bits as Gabrial has a black spot on one of his hind legs & a white spot on his chin where as Jezebel doesn't & she sticks her tongue out aswell which is very sweet.

Today at last

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 17:24:15 GMT

Today I have spent most of it job hunting & I may have an interview on Thursday. I am also in the middle of reporting a certain tarot line to trading standards, as they took me on, apparantly I was supposed to be an Irish psychic, I'm about as Irish as a kimono, anyway it was more to do with the fact they wouldn't give me my contract.

Anouncement 20/08/06

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 17:14:35 GMT

Happy Birthday Big Sis hope you ejoy the little bit of light reading I bought you (it is an encyclopedia on witchcraft which is about as thick as a doorstep)

The craft fair 18-20/08/06

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 17:11:31 GMT

Well it was my second weekend break & it was time to use the tent again, although this was not with Rich. I wish it was & I wish I went to the Pagan Association camp instead but I had a little fun at Eastnor Castle. My mum had a craft sall there selling dorstops & nightdress cases which she sells to make more of them so she can donate them to charity to raise money. My mum can't work as she has a medical record like a hypochondriac's to have list & it took her well over 6 months to make 20 doorstops & 10 pyjama cases. How many did she sell? not a single one, I felt ever so bad for her. I also was a little pissed off with her in the mornings as I found out where I inherit my morning lethargy from only mine is nowhere near as bad.. God at times she really doesn't know what urgency it & I ended up having topen the stall for her even though I was there only to help load, unload & look after the stall so she can go on lunch (she had a chair other wise she wouldn't have lasted).

The weather wasn't ideal for camping as not long after we put the tent up we had a thunderstorm, the lightening was spectacular though, it pissed down with rain a lot too. They had falconry displays with which the saker falcons much preferred staying in the trees or dive bombing the falconers themselves. They had a reinactment lot as well called the Sealed Knot who were 17th Century reinactors & they had cannons which made everyone who wasn't paying attention to the anouncements that they would be doing it jump 6 foot into the air much to my amusement. They had some decent entertainment on at night although the premise sounded lame it surprisingly wasn't as it was a woman singing & her son doing the occaisional sax playing bit.

I did get to see some bog myrtle & meadowsweet which I had only seen photos of before so I was chuffed with that & there was a good amount of birdlife around too including barn & tawny owls, great spotted & green woodpeckers & loads of swallows so I was impressed by that, so all in all it was an ok weekend away.

Pupmkin

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:48:09 GMT

I discovered I do have 1 pumpkin after all (can't remeber what date that was)

Startling revelation atleast to me 15/08/06

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:46:50 GMT

I was trawling the internet after looking for a job & looked upon sites about famous LGBT people & was surprised to see the addition of Anne Frank & Prince Charles. Ok we may have heard the rumours & heard a leak to the press about Charlie boy & Michael Fawcett but I never thought someone would add it to the lists of LGBT people for the likelihood of getting sued or being done for treason. As far as Anne Frank it just seemed so bizzare but it seems that the Diaries of Anne Frank were edited to seem a little more publically acceptable, as she fantasized about the touch of a woman & contain desires for another woman, can we have a none edited version please I feel that it would be useful for those young women who may be having difficultes with such feelings if they are lesbian or bisexual, to show it is not abnormal. What I found equally disturbing is the lack of mentions of Carl Barat, Pete Doherty, Pam St Clements, Anthony Cotton, Christopher Penczack, Andi Peters & Andrew Hadyn-Smith on them & they are out as being bi, lesbian or gay respectively. Oh well.

The key to popularity 13/08/06

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:31:19 GMT

This was something I was nervous about. I was doing another open ritual but this is one which was not the formulaic Wiccan ritual of other festivals that we have done. I did my first public airing of my pumpette (the odd cross pollinated veg I ended up growing purely by accident, which has left me not wanting to grow courgettes next to pumpkins again). I had not read my invocation so I was bricking it, but hey what came out my mouth hads deep seated meaning & it made people laugh into the bargain & it was the first ritual I have been to where the lack of the circle in the shape we formed was on purpose. It didn't go completely without annoyances with a certain member of the group telling me what I had grown was a pumpkin even though it quite clearly had mottling & green stripes & certain member correcting another invoker when it was really out of sorts as to the invocation being quite relevant to the time it was muddy why not invoke the power of mud, plus the fact it was much as a rejoice to the fact we had some rain recently. Afterwards the feast was good I say feast it was really cakes, bread, biscuits & ale which went down well as real ale is allways good. But the bread lead me to my popularity on the day as I had something that people wanted on it. You want to be popular make green tomato chutney, it got the point where we had run out of bread & were putting it on gingerbread men.

I'm back dating

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 16:08:56 GMT

The entries I'm putting in should have been put in a while ago, so I will be putting them in chronological order as they should have been entered. I'm sorry to those have been checking to see if I have updated my journal to find thayt it still only had 3 entries 2 of which were a little gross.

Fruits of my labour

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 22:25:27 GMT

Well nothing gross to report today you'll be glad to hear, Rich & I have got over our respective ilnesses & basking in the glow of health. Although one slight grossness is I'm trying to go back to washing my hair every other day now that the nights aren't so stiflingly hot, which is resulting in a few greasy hair days, but this can only last a few days until I get annoyed with it. I want to dye my hair but until I get a job that is going to have to weight, as my holistic therapy & tarot reading work is not bringing in enough money.

I got praise yesterday apparently, by a bunch of people I haven't met, not as wierd as it sounds, I got this news via Rich. He Djs online, I'm not sure about whether I can name sites in such a manner, so to be on the safe side I wont unless someone tells me otherwise. anyway back to the compliments, due to Rich's music well can't say obsession as that makes him sound really bad, his passion I suppose would be a better way of describing it, he does spend a fair bit of time on the computer writing his own tunes, preparing forhis next set & talking to people who go on the same club nights as him occaisionaly I can sometimes lose him for an evening to the decks & the computer. It's a good job gardening & cooking take up a fair while, which just happen to be my hobbies. The only thing is when I man the computer for Rich on the odd occasion I end up to all these raver type people about growing strawberries or geraniums or something which usually gets a few choice comments mocking me from Rich. I can't help it if my hobbies lie away from techno, plus if they didn't want to talk about it they wouldn't bring about the conversation in the first place.

I have picked my first carrots & runner beans today & they were lovely it's just a pity I ran out of Bisto & had to top up the gravy thickening with cornflour which made eating dinner seem a little more of a chore than it should have done & leaving me feeling like I swallowed a breeze block. I still have my freak vegetables growing away, altogh only one of my pumpettes is of any real hugeness, which shall hopefully be be hollowed out for Samhain (Halloween for those none Pagans who have stumbled accross this journal who haven't put 2 & 2 together.

Anyway it is time for bed goodnight & I hope I don't forget that I stiill have an account on here

The Runs

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 18:30:15 GMT

I know there is a pattern emerging, it wasn't one of my usual ones though. After Rich's escapades with hugging the toilet, yesterday the toilet got a rest, but not for long, it was now my turn to start, but not from the same end. Now I'm your regular kind of guy but today I was a little too regular & now my ring is red raw, which is just great seeing as though I was supposed to be on duty reading tarot today. Oh fun. Well I'm not cooking tonight, just in case I pass this bug on to Rich, who is still a little delicate although he went back to work today. Anyway I don't tend to stay ill long & tomorrow I'll be right as ninepence, just you see. What I am concerned about is who I might have passed it onto, having done a talk on aromatherapy in a semi crowded room. Wll Rich is back so I'll spend some time with him now, good bye

Crawfish Huey

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 20:48:16 GMT

Hello & welcome to my first live journal posting, I'm fresh out of the the vegetable garden just having watered it before it gets pitch black & impossible to see whether I am watering the strawberries or just the beer bottles I have edging the patch. I am also wondering why I water the garden in my flip flops a lot as they are not the most practical of footwear to do it in when the path is made of bark chip, which generally decides to stab you in the foot when you are wandering round & round in circles making sure that each plant gets a decent enough watering.

However if you are wondering what my garden has to with the title, it doesn't. Infact I am not digressing any further from the title & actualy get on with talking about it. Yes my boyfriend has been chundering his guts up & before you think it, it was not self inflicted, he seems to have picked up a stomach bug from his brother's boyfriend, oh joy. Although he seems to make a good patient he isn't 'dieing' & isn't wanting me to be at his beck & call, I do however see that I must get mother henish around him, making sure he is getting enough fluids etc, especially now he is puking up bile, mmmm nice. I must admit my constitution must be getting stronger as the sight of someones elses vomit used to be enough to start me off too, but now it doesn't get me the way that it used to. Perhaps it's what comes with being in a relationship or comes with getting older or not feeling squeamish shoving animal shit in the ground to make your plants grow better. Well whatever it is I'm stronger for it. It looks like I'm in the spare room tonight, as our bedroom is closer to the bathroom so it'll be easier for Rich to cry Ralph in the middle of the night if he needs to. This does mean though that I am going to have to shift loads of junk off the bed first& shift my pillows across from my bed as tthe nes on the guest bed are as flat as a pancake.